I am a 23 year old Iranian blind boy looking for better relationship. I have always wanted to write about my life but I don’t know how to start. I was just 13 years old when I approached a girl for the first time, a girl with soft voice and good sense of humor and every thing that can be desirable for a man.
I asked her to go out but she refused. Her reason was her parent and police. I told her we are both blind, who can find out we are friends? At the end of the year she wrote me a letter and said “you are the best of the boys that a girl can reach. I wish you success and a good life.”
After that it has become a question for me, if she didn’t love me what could that letter mean?
Next year I found another girl in the school for the blind. Let me explain that the school is divided for the boys and girls. I was afraid of approaching that girl because I thought I would get the same answer from her.
Next year I left the school for the blind to high school. I found a very good friend. He took me everywhere and I met a lot of girls. I have never been shy boy during my life but they behaved respectfully with me but they were very intimate with my friend.
I found out that some thing is wrong with me and it was my blindness that became a barrier for having a good date. We are separate from the girls in the school for the blind so we couldn’t approach them. And if anyone wants to do it they made fun of him as it happened to me and we couldn’t trust each other. We are like scissorhands in that movie. When a boy wants to make fun of a girl, take a blind boy’s hand as an excuse of helping him and bump him into the girl to laugh.
When a blind man wants to cross the street and people want to help him, they say “good for you that you can not see these girls and remain innocent.” You know I would like to do this crime and go to hell. In the best condition they assume a blind person is a genius and say he is very talented but I want to get rid of this goddamn brain. I am a human before going to school or university and become a genius.
I got blind 6 months after my birth, not by my own will. I don’t know what to name it. Am I unlucky?
It has always been my wish for the beginning of the new year that no one born disabled would be born and all the disabled people would improve.
“Rang e Khoda” (The Color Of Paradise)” and “Beed-e Majnoon” (The Willow Tree) are two movies made by director Majid Majidi, both are about a blind man. The first one about a 14 year old boy and the second one about a 45 year old man. If we assume that the boy grew up and became 45 years old, you see a space of 30 years. Wasn’t he young? We see that a man got married and has a daughter.
I am curious about every thing from women’s body to the upcoming U.S. presidential election campaign, sports, history etc. An attractive, handsome, and really cool boy who always wishes to act like Behrouz Vossoughi in his real life.
If it is true that “where there is a will there is a way”, I have a strong will to go beyond these barriers to have a good relationship. Who the hell said a blind person should date a disabled person? Of course I don’t care about it but what I want is just to have a good relationship.