St. Paul, Minnesota (CNN) – It’s been over seven years since Marian Hagerman has spoken to anyone in his family. As he huddles behind a parked trailer on a cold early spring day, Hagerman reflects on his life, and recalls what led him to this moment.
“This is my lifestyle,” says Hagerman, 54, while sneaking a swig of what he calls “wash,” or mouthwash – a cheap way of getting intoxicated. “It ain’t much, but this is what I have. It sucks. “
He says he held a steady job for 20 years, before his addiction to alcohol took over his life. Today, Hagerman lives at St. Anthony Residence in St. Paul, Minnesota, along with about 60 other late-stage alcoholics.
St. Anthony, which receives funds from the state and the Catholic church, is known as a “wet house” because Hagerman and the others are allowed to drink on site, with some caveats – including no mouthwash.