My brother's birthday in #745 Beraim.
Can't forget or forgive
December 6, 2001
These pictures of my childhood in Abadan and the war with Iraq are still
so vividly alive in my memory.
Two weeks ago I had a patient, a 38 year-old Iraqi man with chest pains
secondary to a wound from a G-3 bullet still in his chest cavity clearly
seen by x-ray. He had sustained the wound at Bahmanshir River right behind
Abadan, exactlly on one of the days I was on the other side of the river
during my service in the war.
I examined him, kept my professional look up and wrote some pain medicine
and referred him to a thoracic surgery consultant. When he was leaving he
held my hand and looked deep into my eyes. He had that same smile all Iraqis
have. I remember so well. For a second hatred came back to me. I said to
myself "I wish the bullet had gone little to the left!"
For an hour after he left I felt nauseated and my spine felt cold. I
was just not myself. I just can't forget and forgive. Sorry, I can not!