Archive Sections: letters | music | index | features | photos | arts/lit | satire Find Iranian singles today!

San Francisco

The couple
Love's limits

November 28, 2003
The Iranian

Among the homeless people of my neighborhood, there was a man and a woman who were very much in love.  I would see them along Geary Street, pushing their belongings in a cart, and the woman would look very happy and the man would look at peace.  They looked like anybody else.  They had their daily affairs to attend to and they liked attending to them together.

They were not a part of the main groups of homeless people I would see.  They were not part of the group that was often around the liquor store on 12th Avenue and that sometimes slept in the park across the street from my house.  They were not part of the group that I would see lying on the grass in front of the library on sunny days.  They were just their own pair, and they seemed to like it that way and it seemed like it was enough.

One morning I saw the man standing at a bus stop.  He was wearing clean clothes and his hair was cut and his face shaven.  I almost did not recognize him.  But he did not look at peace like I had always seen him.  He looked completely lost.  He looked like he was trying to hold on to something steady in the middle of a great storm.  He was waiting for the bus and I figured that he had gotten some kind of job, but he did not look like he knew what the hell that meant.  He looked like he knew that it was something that people did, but that didn't help much.

I wondered if it had to do with the woman.  The whole time that I had seen them, their homelessness was something that he wore outwardly more than she did.  It was in his browned skin and clear, glassy eyes.  It was a look that I had seen among the men carrying their packs on their shoulders in the Marina and Tenderloin districts.  It was a look that went with the sun, with the sun of San Francisco and the way that the moment was everything when you were in it.

I wondered if she had gotten tired of it and she had asked him to find a job as part of their beginning to get out of it.  She always looked happy with him, but it also seemed that a regular life with a home and a husband and things like that was not very far from her.  She didn't look like it was something she had forgotten about.  I could see it in her clean, rosy face and her good, warm clothes.

If he was waiting at the bus stop like that for her, for their life together, I thought that was beautiful.  He looked like a poet all the other times I had seen him, like a poet towards every part of life except money, and now at the bus stop he looked like he was trying to go without that poetry, for some money, and I knew he really loved her.

I didn't see either the man or the woman for a while.  And then one day I saw the man sitting in the park with the woman who used to ask for change in front of Cal-Mart.  She was part of the 12th Avenue crowd.  I used to see her in front of Cal-Mart back when I worked full-time at the school and I would talk to her about her life.  Once I had brought some of the kids down and had her talk to them about life, and she had always thanked me for that.

They were sitting in the park and drinking in the early afternoon.

"Hey honey," she called out to me.

"Hello," I yelled.

"Going to the school?"

"Yes."

"That's great, that's great."

I could hear them laughing halfway down the block.  They were having a good time.  I had never seen him drinking before.  With the woman with the rosy face, it seemed like they were always moving, it had seemed like their poverty wasn't something that kept them outside the world.  They would actually seem more inside the world than anybody, because the way they looked when they walked together went with things like dusk and spring, better than anything else I saw among people. 

It wasn't the worst thing in the world, I thought.  She had wanted some kind of certainty in their life and he had wanted some kind of freedom, and so they had gone their separate ways.  The man did look happy sitting there on the grass under the sun. 

I thought of the last time I had seen the woman he was sitting with.  She had seen me one night on Geary and she had been telling me that it was a very good thing that I was working with kids, and then one of the homeless men who knew her had asked me why I was listening to the words of a heroin addict, and she had yelled at him and it had been a mess.

Now she was sitting in a way that was womanly and he was sitting like a man who had all kinds of time stretched out before him, and it looked like the beginning of a new romance.  I hoped that they enjoyed it, and I thought that I probably shouldn't be sad about the end of the other relationship if the man didn't look sad himself. 

It was just that with the other woman, he didn't need a sunny day in the park and I felt certain that he didn't need alcohol.  They had looked like the healthiest couple in the street to me, like they carried the best parts of the street with them and did their best with the difficult parts. 

The whole thing probably made some kind of statement about love and how much it was capable of and how much it was incapable of, but I decided to forget about it and wait until I learned the thing on my own if I was meant to learn it.
>>> Literature forum

* Send this page to your friends

COMMENT
For letters section
To Siamak Vossoughi

* Advertising
* Support iranian.com
* FAQ
* Reproduction
* Write for Iranian.com
* Editorial policy

ALSO
By Siamak Vossoughi
Features
in iranian.com

ALSO

Fiction & prose
in iranian.com

Book of the day
amazon.com



House of Sand and Fog
Novel about a former colonel in the Iranian military living in San Francisco
By Andre Dubus III

Copyright 1995-2013, Iranian LLC.   |    User Agreement and Privacy Policy   |    Rights and Permissions