Old births, new deaths

Rahill Jamalifard
May 16, 2005
iranian.com

Three poems
* Old births, new deaths
* A whistle
* Blind shadows

Old births, new deaths
there is a break between the existing and what once had existed
my feelings turn into haunting memories, i stilll keep rolling over the eight millimeter in my mind. i cry when i watch them, a dream that crashed before it even took off
the mind plays tricks, teaches you to hope. this idea youre indestructible, your goals, your desires, your beliefs. these intangables that are guarded by saints.
and yet there is now a break between the existting and what once had existed.
before my eyes i watch concrete turn into china
then to a thousand glistening spectacles as it crashes to the ground
there is beauty in the act death, but i am too occupied to notice
the act of withdrawal hurts too much to heal
and so ive lost.
i stand sorrounded by the skeletons of past truths
whove wandered off their providential paths
suddenly facades seem to fade once subjects are out of context
indeed how depressing liberating knoweledge can be
i lived comfortably with the idea all my questions had been awsnered
and yet now there is a break between the existing and what once had existed

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A whistle
A once guitar strap decorated by an aged flag
Wrapped with memories, pinned with affection
Tightly pressed against my hips
Affection turned fashion, fashion turned function
I wear old memories as clothes
Sincerity begets fallacies, frowns turn smiles
The belle of the ball, must always be dressed
Every day a masquerade
Routine acts, greeted with a new cast of assorted faces
The roll I play, the face I wear, always remains stagnant
The kettle of perfection is whistling at me
Pressure creates ugly undertones
I rush, but in a haste, trip and fall
The act of capturing beauty,
Incites everything but-
As if when fighting a fire you‚re handed a hose of fuel
And so I wear old memories as clothes
Comfort, protection...
Today a man asked, how does it feel to be so beautiful
I replied
ugly.

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Blind shadows
Obscure pigments cast blind shadows against chalky walls, their surface cracked battered and abused, even the absence of light fails to disguise the face of age.
Obscure pigments, the color pink, its fairest hue, glorifying youth, a youth demolished, destroyed before it ever built. Absence of light, absence of color, deteriorating pigments, lost in a field of robotic corn. In this field nothing is capturing, the concept of natural remains void, there is repetition, an ugly consistency, a monochromic scheme of grey. This is a battlefield, everything living has died, each his own martyr, in the end there is only sameness, a unifying tragedy. The end to no end.
Stalemate.