if you touch it
you’ll break it
me
if you look too long
it will crumble
my lie
and if you take it
my dear, you must know
you will never have it
…………………………………….. my …
i don’t want love
i don’t need your promises
your touch
your looks
your memories
you
I
Don’t
Need.
I lied.
You looked long enough to break it
My bluff
You stayed through enough to touch it
My face
You held me close enough to feel it
Me
And for this and for you and for us
I am forever
And for once
A part of something bigger
And truer
And warmer
And safer
And mine. Not yours, not ours. MINE.
Because, this time: there is a me
A me I had written off as gone
Dead?…worse
Cold
Numb
Empty
But, she is here
I am.
I know, because I felt her breathing
Late last night still warm from your touch
And so I know, she must be real
And I am
And you are
And so, there can be an us
That I can touch and look at and make memories with
And for this
And for you
And for us
And for me
I am forever
…………………..Grateful…………………..at peace
Settled…………………..warm.
