Call from death row

My instincts tell me that at the end of this black night, a warm sun is going to shine in the sky


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Call from death row
by Ali Mahin Torabi
13-Dec-2007
 

Twenty-one year old Ali Mahin Torabi's case has received extensive attention inside and outside Iran. According to Amnesty International he has been convicted of a murder committed when he was 16 years old and is now at risk of imminent execution in Tehran, though Iran is a state party to international treaties including the Convention on the Rights of the Child (CRC), which expressly prohibit the execution of child offenders.

Walls, only walls. I am surrounded by walls. I cannot forget any of the terrifying moments of these last few days. I don't want to think about how time is running out. Only a few more days...

From the first day of my arrest, five years ago, until now, the sky is all I can see. During all these unbearable moments, I can only stare at the endless fences of my prison. I can only see its towers and its barbed-wires which pierce my heart. Do you hear the bleeding of my wounded heart?

I am sick. I am cold. The essence of my youth has been shattered. Every moment of my tedious life is filled with rancor. I am tired. These repetitious days pull my existence apart. It's to live or to die -- it's†the only thing I can think of. The only thing that slowly destroys whatever is left of me.

Every time I remember the pain that I am putting my parents through, I just want to die. I have already written my will. I have accepted my destiny. But I am going to pray, before they put the noose around my neck. I am going to put my hand on the Koran and I will pledge that I haven't killed Mazdak, my classmate and my friend. It is true that I had a knife in my hand, but I didn't kill him.

The weakness of my defense and the lack of a complete examination of the evidence have brought me here, into †this hopeless situation. I have heard that Mazdak's mother has forgiven me, but I don't know why his father doesn't want me to live. I am trapped between life and death. During all these years the weight of the sin I haven't committed has been on my shoulders. I am tired. All days are all the same. I look at the sky and pray.

Yesterday, someone showed me a copy of the Iran newspaper. It seems that now people are praying with me. I read every line and every word†expressing the compassion of these ordinary people, and I cried. I felt relieved, as if I could see an approaching sunrise.

Yes, my instincts tell me that at the end of this black night, a warm sun is going to shine in the sky. At the other side of my prison's high fences there is a mountain and the mountain watches over me. No, even closer! God has enveloped my heart. God is calling my name. I call him to prove my faith to him. To show him that I still do exist, as long as he is with me. I still believe that God, from behind the bars of my cell, is observing my frozen hands. I am not leaving. I can hear him. I still believe that my sole share of life shouldn't be living this way; living in a cage. I still believe that God is hearing my prayers. I truly believe it.

It is fall and I have almost forgotten how the trees look now. I miss the free world. I miss the fall and every moment of my life is full of passion. But there is no more time left. I have to go. And I don't want to. Even my cellmates pity me and pray for me. The nightmare of death doesn't leave me alone, but for the past few days I just try to hide my agony. If on my day of execution, Mazdak's father forgives me, I promise I will be like a son to him

My mother brought me a book of Hafez. "My Ali will survive," she said. Now I dream of her and what she said every night.

I miss the smell of my home, the smell of my notepads and my books. If you found my computer notepad, please write on it: "I wished I could have become an engineer." But I didn't. Today I opened my book of Hafez and made a wish. It said: "I have vowed if one day my sorrow and unhappiness ends, I will sing and I will dance forever".

If I am forgiven, each cell of my body will celebrate the gift of life. But for now, destiny and the will of Mazdak's father and mother still own my youth.

Translated by Azarin A. Sadegh


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good guess mr Colombo or

by Anonymous1000 (not verified) on

good guess mr Colombo or Janidaler. so what is the solution?


Mehdi

I suspect Milad

by Mehdi on

Usually the real killers stand back and let somebody else do the dirty work for them. They usually invest on mind manipulation rather than fighting skills (as they are more of a coward). I have had "friends" that pushed me into situations and it took me years to realize their vicious intent! Such people can be VERY cunning; very convincing that they are your only "true friend." I can't be sure of course, but based on what Azarin says here, it is very suspicious of Milad - how he seems to have arranged the pretext for the fight, the fight and eventually had to even actually push the guy onto the knife (held by Ali) as his subject (Ali) was not following his hypnotic "friendly" command.


Jahanshah Rashidian

Admiration

by Jahanshah Rashidian on

In dealing with a judicial case under the  murderous IRI, I admire  Sasha, Rosie, Azarin, and SCE Compaign who courageouoly defend Ali . 

Let's hope that this compaign helps to save his life. 


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If there is a way please tell Ali

by A (not verified) on

If there is a way please tell Ali and his family that we care, and I am thinking of him and praying for him, and have been for some time (since I found out), and have done the little that I could from here.

I wish Mazdak's mother and father would also be told that we are sorry for this very tragic loss.
God knows what they are going through.
I hope all these children on death row are saved from death.
I hope they get fair trials.


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I understand that the

by Anonymous55 (not verified) on

I understand that the defence against him may have been week, that he was a minor (in the states, some crimes and minors are tried as adults!)at the time, that Iran's justice system is a disgrace etc. You cannot mount a defence for him and expect me to believe it when the other side isn't here to prove the case of the deceased. The facts of the case are murky and I think reason should prevail, not emotions. Capital punishment is an acceptable idea in many western countries.
Please don't respond with angry words. I am only saying that this is not the proper venue to discuss a legal matter. Public support could maybe help him get him a new trial but this isn't the place to act as a lawyer and try to convince us that he is innocent so that we can support him.


Rosie T.

For information on how you can help Ali

by Rosie T. on

see recent blogs by SCE Campaign, Azarin, Sasha and Ali...see the thread entry "How you can help." It isn't pasting here with the links properly. Robin


Azarin Sadegh

Why do I believe in Ali's innocence?

by Azarin Sadegh on

Hi,

 

I think I have repeatedly told Ali's story (in detail) and I don't want to repeat myself, but since it seems many haven't read those other blogs yet, so I think it desn't hurt to repeat the story. But this is the link to the full story told by Ali in Farsi:

 

//ali-mahintorabi.blogspot.com/2007_11_01_archive.html

 

I can summarize the important points in English so all Iranian.com readers can read it. These points helped me to believe in his innocence, otherwise I might have remained very quiet.

 

1) Ali is an excellent student academically, but socially he doesn't have many friends. His ONLY friend is Milad. And it is Milad who had started the fight in the morning with Mazdak the victim .

 

2) The knife was not Ali's. It was Milad who insisted that Ali take the knife that Milad had brought to school(that explains why Ali's father was so mad at him for taking part in the defense of Milad)

 

3) Mazdak --as even described by his own mother -- was more of a bully. He (and a few of his friends) attacked Milad in the morning and after the school ended.

 

4) Ali wanted to escape and didn't care if Mazdak and his friends found them to be coward or "Tarsoo". But Milad refused to leave so Ali stayed to defend his only friend.

 

5) I think there is a high probability if Milad gave Ali a knife, he should have had also another knife for himself. Because during the last fight that caused Mazdak's injury, Ali was fighting with victim’s friends and Milad was fighting with the victim, right before he fell on Ali.

 

6) Ali and Mazdak were standing back to back when Milad pushed back Mazdak, who fell on Ali (Ali had his knife in his hand toward other kids to scare them). The injury was not in the back of the victim.

 

7) When Mazdak realized he is injured, everybody ran away except Ali who tried to find a way to take him to hospital. It took a long time before one of the teachers accepted to take him to the hospital. At the hospital, at first doctors thought he was injured at stomach (and not close to heart) but when the moment they realized the gravity of the cut, it was alreday too late and he had lost too much blood.

 

8) As soon as the teacher took Mazdak to the hospital, Ali presented himself to the school office, where he told that he might have accidentally injured Mazdak.

 

9) The forensic examination of Ali's knife showed that there was no DNA on his knife.

 

So now, what would you think, if you were in the jury? Would you declare him guilty, beyond any reasonable doubts?

 

I am no lawyer -- even if I have read lots of Agatha Christie and Hercule Poirot books! -- but I think a good lawyer shoud be able to prove his innocence. Mazdak's death in all possible cases is tragic and unfair but it is not a premeditated death. No parent is supposed to go to the funeral of his/her child. I am a mother of two boys (13 and 11), so I can imagine the degree of anger and helplessness of Mazdak's parents, still this anger and helplessness should not justify the execution of an innocent.

 

The only thing that Ali's parents are asking from the Justice sytem is to accept Ali's appeal, so he can get the chance of having another trial and to prove his innocence, but this time with a good lawyer and a fair judge.

 

Ali has already spent 5 years of his life in prison, so I think he has already paid for his crime of accepting Milad’s knife and taking part in the fight.

 

By the way, Ali’s parents are not Basiji, but they aren’t rich either and they have no good connection in the Iranian Justice System. They made also the mistake of leaving him alone for 20 days. The scar of these horrifying 20 days of solitude (for a 16 years old kid) would somehow remain forever. If Ali is saved, he would never be able to forget the darkness of those days and if he dies his parents will never be able to forgive themselves for letting their son down.

 

You might now wonder what you would have done if you were Ali's father?

 

 Thanks,

 

Azarin


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