When I looked outside to see the bright sunlight, I knew right away that life was just too good to be true. That even though the sky was blue, I wasn’t. I could see the clouds moving, as I concentrated, staring at the sky. In my mind, my life was going great and I had nothing to worry about. At that moment, enjoying the bright sunlight, I felt right, I felt complete.
I knew that in due time, something was just destined to ruin it. The happiness I felt was either an illusion that was falling into my hands, like a paradox floating above my head or a non existant figment of my imagination, that only left the glass half full. I couldn’t help, but question my own happiness. I have always prayed for the best, as I am a faithful woman, but I also knew that I couldn’t rely only on prayer, as GOD receives so many and our freewill gives us the ability to think as we do and do as we think.
I kept thinking to myself, “if only I could predict the future, if only I could see what the future held, if only I could see what was is yet to come” but then it hit me. Our world is not perfect. Our world is balanced between light and dark, high and low, and black and white.
Why must others suffer and feel pain, so I can be happy? Why must others go hungry and feel starved, so I can eat? Why must others be illiterate and feel confused, so I can learn?
The world is a chain of more than just life. The world is a chain of hope and there is hope everyone. Every time I questioned about my own thoughts, I was aware that I believed only what I wanted to believe, what I had seen, and what I do see, and that is the bright sunlight.
– Sarah Afshar
