Is there any thing worst than death?

Rendd
by Rendd
27-Feb-2010
 

My divorce is becoming finalized very soon…

It was inevitable but god knows I tried. I tried and tried to save the marriage and restore the love. If my son one day asks that if I truly tried, I would have answer that would heal his wound and calm his soul and warm his heart that his dad used every thing at his disposal to stay calm and look further than revenge and he put love above everything.

Last week was my marriage anniversary and I sent her the last bunch of flowers. I am not sure if she thought it that way. I got the vibe that she thinks I was still begging for her love. She even didn’t want to acknowledge the flowers until I asked her if she got the package.

Man, I am talking about becoming the doormat. I must have been an extremely awful person that I deserve this. But hey, there is a high for every low and there is low for every high.

I’ll sit and watch when my high comes and, God I beg you, let me not to forget my low when I am getting drunkard of my high, that to become kind and stay compassionate to people around me to embrace love in my burnt shack and hold kindness in my cracked cup and spread peace with my broken Setar.

Amen!

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Latina

Bale

by Latina on Sun Feb 28, 2010 02:21 PM PST

Sadly, the answer to your question is Bale

Being diagnosed with a terminal illness.

Being diagnosed with an incurable illness.

The list is extensive,  Rendd. However, what is the point of dwelling on it.

Things come in life that have no reason to them. All we can do is the best that we can do to overcome it.

I believe it was Yolanda that shared this with us on the web site:

 //www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs

 

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith


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Nur-i-Azal

I feel for you, brother

by Nur-i-Azal on Sun Feb 28, 2010 01:31 PM PST

Keep your chin up and don't let circumstances wear you down. You will need all the reserves of your inner strength at the moment. Yes, there are worse fates than death: a living death. But I tell you this, you will come out of this all the better if you look at it as a personal life toughening experience. Don't however become cynical about life. Human relationships are only a tiny spectrum in this greater continuum, and as bad as things seem right now you will come out of this. Consider also that your external world divorce might be a process in your internal inner world marriage -- and once that marriage occurs there is never any divorce.

Find your Center and move into it, and keep on keeping on, brother. Ya NUR


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Latina

I feel it's going to rain.............

by Latina on Sun Feb 28, 2010 11:55 AM PST


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Rendd

Thanks yolanda...

by Rendd on Sun Feb 28, 2010 06:46 AM PST

:O)


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yolanda

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by yolanda on Sat Feb 27, 2010 06:03 PM PST

Hi! Rendd,

     Thank you for this part, it is very touching:

.........to become kind and stay compassionate to people around me to embrace love in my burnt shack and hold kindness in my cracked cup and spread peace with my broken Setar.

    It is very beautiful and poetic........I believe God is very fair that He has something good in store  for you.....Hang in there....

Best wishes always!


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