Hollow Soul

Hollow Soul
by Soheyla Marzvaan
13-May-2009
 

There's darkness in your candle
And the inviting words you express,
Conceals the coward in you.

The senseless hollow notes you sing
In your song of whatever journey
Feeds the ego who is in charge
The Fear of death of the only "I" you know
Only a warrior can resolve

You say the same words of wisdom
A fake poet can impress and
Be accepted by his charms
Your ego’s then transforming
From one who once was lost
To you now, who knows “of” freedom
Yet, is scared to pay the cost

Your gift of words is holy,
Not to use to hurt someone
With the excuse of past demise
Your words can bless or harm you
And the child who lives inside
Who’s imprisoned by your mind
Whom you "think” you’re setting free
Choosing solitude and loss

We all are in an unreal dream,
Some for days, some for life.
When “I” is selfish, you’ll deceive
No use to apologize,
You know it can not mend
The sword’s gone in, the blood has spilled
Repent and realize:

Amazing how eyes wide open, clever minds,
Senses sharp, and speech so grand
Can still be:
"Wetness leaving water”
“A fish not seeing the sea”

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A beautiful description, you

by "Golhaaye Daroon" (not verified) on

A beautiful description, you say, "The ocean does not say, I only want to experience only small waves - And the title waves should go away", in which the ocean vows to "unity" and inclusion vs. exclusion. By the same token, dear Soheyla, hope you decide as such and continue to share your thoughts & feelings with the rest.

To label other's way of being, specifically negatively, using words such as "coward", singing "senseless hollow notes", "fake poet", etc., are all bitterly judging another. Albeit certainly one's prerogative to do so, a wayfarer comes to such obstacles in their way to enlightenment once they have come through a bitter experience where they feel somehow left behind & unfulfilled.

To try to empathize with the being whom such a bitter experience occurred with, and one will feel for their pain as one does for their own, and that will see both involved growing and evolving through the predicament at their own pace.

Yes, the sword might have gone in and the blood has spilled, although painful, you'll rise again like a "phoenix" from the ashes, resurrected and whole again through truly experiencing growth, gratitude, and grace.

Yes, once gratitude sets in, like a glorious sunset over turbulent waters, look onto the horizon, as the grace is making its way, like a most beautiful sunrise after a dark night, to become one with you.


Soheyla Marzvaan

No thing ness

by Soheyla Marzvaan on

Tell me who is the witness

Of your own seeing

And what is revealed

Through your own looking

 

 

Tell me who is attached to experience

Can you experience the space of no mind

If there is not an experiencer,

The experience won't last

 

 

The potential is dormant inside

And a "story" triggers it to wake up

 

 

Come from a place of no thingness

Of emptiness of your consciousness

From silence of your retreat

You are in the space in which now begins

And ends in "all" and in "one"

 

 

Every experience has to have its play

And when it gets to its exhustion,

Then it will move away

 

 

Recognize it with no mind,

And, use a much more powerful way

That's immediate,

No gaps and no journey and no stay

 

 

The ocean does not say,

I only want to experience only small waves

And the titles wave should go away


Soheyla Marzvaan

Last Entry

by Soheyla Marzvaan on

  

Dear Golhaye Daroun= probity= F.Z, prince in exile, divinity; Thank you all for your comments. I am grateful

 

Dear Golhay Daroun; With what you wrote, no one disagrees; please do not take the following as my defense or personal attack to you. But as explanation for the poetry and exchange of experience and knowledge as it seems you too are on the path; and here are the facts:

 1) Your comment was a judgment on the content or the writer! Why did you not look at it as  it  “describing” a hollow soul?  Here is what it truly was: A reminder or a plea from a messanger whose perhaps sent by your higher self who loves your soul.

 2) Only a hollow soul will go into defense mode, and has a need  to justify and prove to others that they are not hollow but enlightened. The truly enlightened ones do not take offense, instead read the verses, contemplate first on themselves, second recognize that on their own path of enlightenment they themselves have met " hollow souls, as teachers, friends. Then , they study whether They have forgiven them and are grateful for them, and do not live in the pain caused by them, or do they now need to over come fear, and become a soldier. 

 3) The piece is stating a fact that hollow souls exist. Ones who have kind eyes, command of language and knowledge and seem enlightened, yet in truth are victims of gestalt and identity and ego. They are to have compassion for although they cause pain to themselves as they get energy from it and cause pain to others. Every one has experienced such people. BUT it is the enlightened individual who transcends his judgments ,( 1st step of enlightenment),  then becomes observer  and the experiencer of the pain ( second step) ,then forgives and has gratitude for the person ( thirds and last step ,the hardest and most unrealized).. Only after gratitude, you let go of pain and feel freedom, peace; that emptiness Rumi speaks of.    

 

4) To reach the emptiness and not to be involved in the “unreal dream” is only the first step of the path of enlightenment. The next is to fight the dragon and kill it to end the suffering. And that takes a warrior to do. To recognize the pain and delve into it is grand. There’s much that one gains from pain. Only through pain oone can  grow, so to enjoy the true love. But no sage or teacher preaches “suffering”. Suffering is when you love that " pain " instead of yourself (because you have not forgiven yourself) . Suffering is being attched  to  pain, attached to the “story”, and that is where the ego/the dragon comes in the picture. It so cleverly disguises itself as the enlightened soul to fool you into thinking you’re on your way, but it continues to feed itself more and more with suffering. And then if one is not careful, or does not have the right spiritual teacher, (after all no one walks alone, that’s another trick of the ego), then one’s identity becomes “the story”, the “suffering” ,and that is when you “enjoy” being that identity. That's when " the story is your only lover” and there's no room for others including yourself.

The ego fools you to believe by solitude, and retracting from people or things, and “whatever" games, you reach stillness.  This is why some people stay in the “unreal dream” for a lifetime. Except that in their dreams they see the dragon every night.  And the subconscious, the true protector, the inner light, the higher self  shows you the dragon in hopes  that you wake up and realize that you are not free . It tests you every now and then to see if you are ready to fight the dragon.  Hense your " set backs" that in reality are your wake up calls.

 5) The emptiness Rumi or other sages refer to is: The peace and freedom one feels after they have fought the dragon. In the process overcome the fear of death, some go to length of death or die, and then resurrect to new heights of being. That emptiness is different than the emptiness of a “hollow" soul. A hollow soul is empty in order to attract attention, the poor me scenario, to live on sympathy from self first and then others. To have an excuse not to get close to any one  in fear of being revealed as when the ego is exposed and identity observed., it is time to fight it and that takes courage and will and unselfishness. This is the same concept that Joseph Campbell described in” hero’s journey”. The same concept when one thinks of fighting evil within oneself ,  Reaching that innate need to search for that “meaning” Victor Frankel spoke about, and quantum physicist look at the zero point field consciousness  as it is related to holographic universe, and spiritual Psychologist ( not classical  psychologist) call healing by braking the gestalt to disassociate from suffering to reach peace and insurmountable joy that only a butterfly coming out of a cocoon of excruciating pain can fathom. 

Last entry: My journey is taking me elsewhere, and I will not be available on this site for an unknown length of time. Thank you so much for all your replies.

Love always,

. (Some poetry has been submitted already, and may still be posted)  

 


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Have enjoyed your thought

by "Golhaaye Daroon" (not verified) on

Have enjoyed your thought provoking poetry; hope you continue to share.

Spiritual teachers teach first & foremost about not "judging" others; it is in fact one of the most difficult tasks any one on the spiritual path ever faces. As soon as one is on their way to become enlightened, the illusion sets in that their perception of the "enlightened" way is in fact the true "way".

What might seem like a "hollow" soul might very well be an enlightened being whom refrains from playing the "whatever" game that is that moment's play in this "unreal dream".

According to Rumi, one has to indeed become "hollow", emptied out of all games & plays, those seemingly clever ways of "self", in order to be able to take in & carry out the divine sounds, and even then, each according to their capacities become the instruments of "unity".


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Have enjoyed your thought

by "Golhaaye Daroon" (not verified) on

Have enjoyed your thought provoking poetry; hope you continue to share.

Spiritual teachers teach first & foremost about not "judging" others; it is in fact one of the most difficult tasks any one on the spiritual path ever faces. As soon as one is on their way to become enlightened, the illusion sets in that their perception of the "enlightened" way is in fact the true "way".

What might seem like a "hollow" soul might very well be an enlightened being whom refrains from playing the "whatever" game that is that moment's play in this "unreal dream".

According to Rumi, one has to indeed become "hollow", emptied out of all games & plays, those seemingly clever ways of "self", in order to be able to take in & carry out the divine sounds, and even then, each according to their capacities become the instruments of "unity".


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Brilliantly, the eagle takes flight…

by probity (not verified) on

Your strength, sensitivity and courage are radiant in your beautiful and articulate poem. I admire you.
Thank you for sharing.


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Intense

by prince in exile (not verified) on

Wow...Loved it...-It's honest- heartfelt- sincere, intense and at the same time, caring, loving....
another beautiful work. Thank you... so much...

Prince in exile


Divinity

Direct and Insightful

by Divinity on

 

Soheyla,

 You're gifted. In just a few verses you openned the human condition of  how we are entagled with identitity that the ego dictates, and how attached we can be to our stories. To go further and  depict those unfortunate souls whose attachment is so strong that they know "of" the words, yet they don't .

Thank you,

Divinity