As I told you recently in my article "Leila and Me", there was a time following a relationship with a Persian man when I went under. And I showed you the poem I came back with. About two months before that I had written a poem called "Thirty Birds". It was a very different journey. It also dealt with going under, but it was an ascent, rather than a descent, into light.
He was a self-styled Sufi, the man in question, and as you no doubt know the title "Thirty Birds" comes from Attar's Simorgh in "The Conference of the Birds." Attar's seventh and final stage of the Sufi's journey, fanaa (extinction) is often translated into English as the Valley of Death. It is an erroneous translation but it fit the experience revealed in this poem.
This poem was revealed to me. Let us not argue from whence, whether from the sub- or super-consciousness, and simply accept that, as with the Leila poem, I had no conscious choice or will in its making, only in the editing.
It revealed itself with Attar's journey as the central metaphor, but it also revealed the presence of Ahriman/Angra Manyu, Ahura Mazda's opponent. I envisioned him somehow very strongly as Khomeini engaged in a battle with the "songgirl", Forough, for the soul of Iran and the world.
Yet the poem also revealed intense Christian symbols: steeples and bells, a saying of Jesus, also as in Attar the top of the mountain. And it is fitting because in reality the spirituality of Iran is a complex synthesis of many religions. including Christianity, Judaism, Buddhism and Turkic shamanism with Mazdaism and Islam.
I just learned that Balkh, where Rumi came from, was until the advent of Islam for a thousand years a great center of Buddhism. And I wonder how much that age-old substratum influenced his vision.
The relationship between Ashura and the Christian flagellantis has been a recent topic of conversation on this website. And under the Sassanids, despite their oppressions, the fertile genius of the Iranian imagination gave birth to ever newer religions, to Mazdakism and to Manichaeism. Later, of course, came the Bahai.
The true religion of Iran, Iran's true spirituality, has all names and no name.
Suffering in Shiism, as in others of the religions which form Iran's spirituality, is seen as an essential part of purification. But the purification achieved through suffering should lead to a catharsis and a new dawn. That is to say, to joy.
To Light.
******
THIRTY BIRDS
for j.
You said at the end I would find myself
That every journey is about ourselves
I trusted your hand and in silence
I went.
We walked across valleys filled with birds
and the seventh one was the valley of death
In Death Valley you rested your head on my breasts
as the clouds caress the mountains with erosion.
And then I saw you recede in the distance
and then I saw nothing but Death
I slept.
I never intended to wake
but I woke
and somehow I was on top of the mountain
something had pulled me up
and I looked
and I saw steeples
and I heard
birds birds hundreds of birds
flapping their wings
bathed in light
I heard everything
the screams of delight
the pain of the dying
the crystalline beauty of the bells
you
and angriman was there
angriman too
and his jackdaws
and the songgirl he hurled
into the wall
and the crashing of the glass
and the wretched earth
and the poor ye shall have with you always
but why?
and then there were only thirty birds
the mountain the mind and memory and erosion.
I saw a young child alone by a road
I remembered her name.
She had once been me.
I felt her recoil from a slap on the face.
I knew who she was.
I understood.
We have all been abandoned
we have all been slapped
the mountain on which I stood
had been struck
the birds too
had all been struck
every flapping
every
flutter every
leprous feather
struck
and
my father
struck
by the love he could not give
and my mother by the love
she gave too much
and terror and
feathers
and
fear of the road
and the idiot angriman
foaming invectives
and you who had left me
you too
struck
and then
everything was
me
and
you and
thirty birds
and my father
and my mother and
one bird only
and I knew
I had reached
the end of my journey
and the motherfather
and I wept.
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I shall not live in vain.....
by Nadias on Wed Jan 30, 2008 09:05 PM PSTEmily Dickinson (1830–86). Complete Poems. 1924.
Part One: Life
VI
If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his (her) nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
I do not know how to relate
by LostIdentity (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 10:20 PM PSTI do not know how to relate the content of your posting to Simorgh (the title). Also, it touches on few subjects that are very unbinding and scattered. However, I enjoyed reading it. I meants to comment of one of those subjects - You say, "just learned that Balkh, where Rumi came from, was until the advent of Islam for a thousand years a great center of Buddhism. And I wonder how much that age-old substratum influenced his vision."
This is a very genuine question but considering the timeline in history, I do not expect to see even a weak effect of Buddhism on Rumi. I can be wrong but I believe Balkh was a moslem country for few decades prior to bith of Rumi. Rumi talks about role models such as Attar, Abi-Said Abalkheir, or Bayzi Bastami. And, of course, the one and only who put fire under his heart was Shams.
.........
Ashura is truly amazing phenomena. Some believe that if Ashura did not happen, Islam would have lost it's genuineness and originality, Quran would've been replaced by another book with man-made verses like the old and new testament. The world would also loose the meaning of Justice. Now, the rituals done in Ashura, come from the hears and minds of regular people. Mullah say that they actually have no control over these rituals and only warn against some rituals that are demeaning to the spirit of Ashura such as inflicting cuts to head and body. The ayatollahs even banned thiese acts.
It is very interesting to see the roots of Ashura. Besides major corruption and deception in the ommayyid dynasty that were in obvious contradiction with Islam's teachings, believe if or not, there's a story of Love, corruption and guardianship!
It has the same........
by Nadias on Sat Jan 26, 2008 10:00 PM PSTrelevance to the poem on this page as some of the comments that have been made towards Rosie T. and I.
Which is the total point of why I posted it. It is called sarcasm.
Nadia
Huh? Hate? Dust? Love? Maya?
by CuriousBoy (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 09:34 PM PSTNadis S, what's the relevance of you poem to this article? Let's see if Rosie's gonna make it delete.
Good thing that.........
by Nadias on Sat Jan 26, 2008 08:36 PM PSTI am not defined by others, rather I define who I am.
"Character is what you know you are, not what others think you have."
-Marva Collins
Nadia
I'm focused on academic pursuits
by Anonymus (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 07:58 PM PSTThat's why I don't focus on "iranian.com" the way Rosie and Nadia do! Do they even have a job???
Like the Phoenix.............
by Nadias on Sat Jan 26, 2008 09:13 PM PSTStill I Rise..( parts of the full poem)
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise..........
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?........
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise..........
I rise
I rise
I rise
By Maya Angelou
Yes, it's the academic focus
by AnotherAnonymous (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 06:50 PM PSTthat has made you a perfect, or just about perfect, acolyte for Rosie... You two match so well!
I am most......
by Nadias on Sat Jan 26, 2008 03:38 PM PSTI am most certainly not looking for a husband here or anywhere else. The focus of my life is academic. I seek knowledge and understanding, not a mate.
Thank you for the laugh.
Nadia
In additon
by In Love (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:49 PM PSTYes and I would like to add a reauest to his request please, Could you Rosie T and your Ahem "Friend" Nadia, Please both post clear, full length pictures of yourselves,including body and figure, as well as your availability status and phone number and address? There are many, many of us Iranian men drooling over you two, and also on a minor point ,badly in need of a stay of deportation, so the faster we can get a date the better. Many, Many thanks from us "zan nadideh" men of Iran.Because as you know there is a clear lack of gorgeous naz nazy Iranian women around. Kisses from LA County Jail
Small Request from Ms. Rosie T
by Arham (not verified) on Sat Jan 26, 2008 10:35 AM PSTMs. Rosie T.
Hope you are well. I am a frequent visitor of the Iranian.com and love to read people’s comments as posted on different topics. Nothing wrong with that, right? I am writing to request if you could replace your current signature picture with one that us readers could see your full lovely face. By making this request, you probably think I am a pervert. I am not. I consider myself a gentleman and a respectful human being. Appreciate considering my request. In advance I thank you for your writing and additionally I might add that you have a wonderful writing skill and always drive your points across so well. Be well and enjoy your day Ms. Rosie.
I don't think so!!!!!!!!!
by AnonymousISenough (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 09:56 PM PSTRosie, you should not impose on people about registering. Only law enforcement agencies and government officials!
Mona,
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 09:42 PM PSTTThe only information you have to give is an e-mail address.
Rosie
by Mona 19 (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 08:51 PM PSTIRI have killed Iranian Baha'i in Iran who were born and raised in a Baha'i family.
some were kidnapped and were never seen again.
don't you think they will tolerate some one like me who convert to Baha'i faith.
I'm not saying this site is not safe but I don't think it's wise to give my name, address, and other info.
With Loving Greetings,
Mona
Dear Khar,
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 05:49 PM PSTThanks for the tip. I will check out the latest Ashura submission. I posted at length on the previous one this past week.
PS I doubt you're a Khar, but then Ben Madadi says we all livei n Kharestaan....
On my way out, for good, ...
by Dr. Kafka (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 05:38 PM PSTI just have to say: "to encourage those who believe in a secular democracy to find common ground" IS to take a political stance on Iran; and "to say that there are many Islams and the secularists should acknowledge peace-loving progressive Muslims in their rhetoric" IS to take a stance on religion.
Shalom and ............... Good-bye!
You see, Kafka...
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 05:25 PM PSTyou';re xenophobic. You just admitted it yourself. I'm not a typical foreigner but you can't see the difference no matter how hard I try. I have NEVER taken any political stance on Iran except to encourage those who believe in a secular democracy to find common ground. I have NEVER taken a stance on religion except to say that there are many Islams and the secularists should acknowledge peace-loving progressive Muslims in their rhetoric. You can't see me, you can't hear me, because I'm "khareji.'
I don't WANT you to leave me alone. I want us to come to some kind of understanding.
Dear Rosie
by Dr. Kafka, MD. PhD (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 04:49 PM PSTI was speaking of ALL your writings, of ALL your condescending comments and of ALL your SPEECHES! And yes, you are a foreigner and we've had enough of foreigners trying to civilize us. WE ARE ALREADY CIVILIZED. You obviously are not ready to hear me. Therefor, and also because you've viciously begun accusing me (and other intelligent people who do not admire you) of taking joy in your misery, I leave you alone for good. That is a promise, my Lady!
Adios,
Kafka
I'm not missing anything.......
by Nadias on Fri Jan 25, 2008 06:05 PM PSTI have been keeping up with that thread. I had never heard of Ashura until it was posted on iranian.com.
By the way why did you post one comment on the Ashura thread twice? Also, interesting link you provided on your circus comment.
Nadia
On a totally different subjet.....
by KHAR (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 04:29 PM PSTRosie and Nadia you two are missing a very interesting discussions under: "Sinehzani in NY, Ashura USA" on the home page. I like to hear what you two think.
Sincerely Khar.
PS. By the way check out my posts on that blog.
I repeat,
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 04:26 PM PSTthere is nothing offensive or colonialistic in this article. All it does is extol Iranian spirituality and explain the background and symbols of a poem. If I were Iranian, you would simply accept what I had to offer with good grace.
The double standard isn't fair. And you have "Schadenfreud."
Dear Rosie
by Dr. Kafka, MD. PhD (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 03:56 PM PSTI am a published psychiatrist and psychotherapist. If I register, can I still say that you are a very manipulative and narcissistic woman with the mind of a colonialist? Are you still going to refuse to look at yourself and the condescending way you are behaving on this website? Are you still going to manipulate readers by playing victim, and by accusing me of being abusive? All I did was to express my professional opinion and offer it to you for free. As the poet says, "Khod Shekan, Aaeene Shekastan Khataast!" Have a great day, and don't forget: Mirror, Morror!
Dear Mona,
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 01:44 PM PSTThanks for reading. The first and most important thing you could do to help the situation would be to register. Registered users don't behave in this way and the more people who register, the more others will be inspired to do so and then their behavior will change because once they have their own cyberidentity they will realize that responsibility goes with it. Right now the chickens so outnumber the registered user that there is no motivation for the people who continually abuse the site to register.
Registration brings many benefits, tracking of your and others' posts, contacting other registered users off-site, editing your posts, flagging offensive posts and so on. It's easy to do and it's really a good thing. It's actually easier to post once you're registered. because then you're permanently logged into your computer and you don't even have to sign when you post.
I am very crushed and disheartened by the attacks on me. I was the person who defended other users successfully against abuse. I researched Ben Madadi's old writings to prove he wasn't a separatist, and I challenged people who accused Rashidian of being with the MKO to supply proof, even anecdotal, and they couldn't so they stopped. I put a lot of time and effort into it just to help out. In conversations on political and religious topics I never took a stand, other than to remind people that anyone who wants a secular democracy in Iran is on the same side, and they should find ccommon ground. And so these attacks are very painful. I never tried to hurt anybody but people are very successfully trying to hurt me. There is a word for it in English from the German: Shadenfreud. It means taking joy in other people's misery.
not so
by David ET on Fri Jan 25, 2008 10:31 AM PSTThis is NOT about "holier than thou" Rosie, you, I .... or agreeing or disagreeing with one another. e.g.: I explicitly expressed some disagreements with Rose's "Leila "...
This is about HOW TO COMMUNICATE.
Hilarious
by Anonymous's fan (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 08:35 AM PSTI think Anonymous's comments are hilarious! I have zero interest in "The Rosie T mafia" or the gibberish she continues to spout everyday or the fact that she treats this once respectable forum as her own personal "chat room", with all the stupid comments back and forth, but I get a kick out of all the highly intelligent and witty people putting this arrogant, narcissistic, "holier than thou" ,obnoxious person, who wants to teach us our own culture,cuz "sorry maam we too estoopid to understand", in her place. Keep up the good work:)
Rosie
by RoseRose (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 08:10 AM PSTYour explanation of the intro to your poem would only make sense if you worked on your tone. How could you possibly judge a character on cyberspace....? The only clue your readers have is your words...There's a difference between those who look at your words regularly and those who've seen only a few or just this one...For one who has followed your writing on this site, it's your tone that hurts you and your reputation the most....And I'm saying that in a critical but honest and friendly way. If you really are who you claim to be, characterwise and in real life, you would be way better off and more helpful to this community to work on that tone. You may not have the slightest intention of self-promotion but that's what your "tone" says ...Of course you have every right to take or leve this, but I invite you at least to think about it. I've known a couple of staunch bloggers who've recently decided to take some time off from blogging and reflect on their image for their readers, two of whom specifically accused of the same faults you've often been. So how about taking some time off and looking in the mirror inside? I'm not a frequent visitor here anymore because of the recent failing quality of the site, but still have seen quite a bit of your work during my occasional visits. Instead of looking to make a change in others, how about starting with yourself? Sorry for the "sermon?"....but you'd perhaps benefit from some house cleaning ... Now please if this comments hurtt you in any way and you get into that self-defense mode, feel free to respond, but i'm afraid i won't have time to visit the site for a while to read that. So instead of reading this as ad hominem, take it as the words of a stranger who met you very briefly just once. good luck with your journey.
Thanks ayatolla mona 19 for
by Anonymous666 (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 06:33 AM PSTThanks ayatolla mona 19 for the sermon!
To: Rosie
by Mona 19 (not verified) on Fri Jan 25, 2008 06:00 AM PSTDear Rosie:
I'm new to this site, and It's really sad to see few people use hurtful words and abusive language to show their disagreement with others.
They don't simply use respectful way to share any ideas/belief/message.....etc
I think we should set some ground rules to facilitate discussion and to ensure open, respectful dialogs.
we should not be afraid to respectfully challenge one another by asking questions, but refrain from harmful words -- focus on IDEAS.
The goal is not to agree -- it is about hearing and exploring divergent perspectives.( unity in diversity)
""Be kind, be decent, be generous, be tolerant, compassionate, and understanding. Be fast to praise, slow to judge. Remember, we're all human, and don't cast the first stone. ""
With loving Greetings,
Mona
we, us...they say.....the so
by Nadias on Fri Jan 25, 2008 05:15 AM PSTself proclaimed speakers for the Iranian community. I am amazed at the audacity of this individuals that continue to do personal attacks on the writers on this website.
They keep calling people colonizers, condescending, etc. ......when in fact they have made themselves the self proclaimed speakers for all Iranians.
I can assure you that they do not speak for my Iranian friends. My Iranian friends enjoy their freedom to think, act and speak for themselves.
Nadia
The site isn't just losing quality writers...
by Rosie T. on Fri Jan 25, 2008 02:00 AM PSTit doesn't even have the kinds of PHOTO submissions it used to have. One on the horsemen of Afghanistan stands out in my mind. Another of the works of the famous early 20th century photographer, Sevruguin. And the photos of the beautiful erotic paintings of the Moghuls. These were all right before the new format. Now the important cultural stuff is just gone.
An essay I read three years ago stands out in my mind, It was an analysis of sexuality in the memoirs of Vali Khan, a Qajar courtier, which are surprisinglyquite explicit. It was just on a very high level of discourse, and very thought-provoking in questioning our concepts of gender and catgories of sexual preference. I can't imagine someone posting something like that now, knowing what kind of circus of disgusting lewd comments they'd be exposed to.
I also have never been personally attacked by a registered user. No matter how much they disagreed with me, the attacks have not been personal. Even those registered users who display vitriol at times always do it in the context of ideas...they get mad, but the attacks are not ad hominem.
JJ thinks it's possbile to ignore the abusive comments on the threads but it isn't. And at the end of the day you don't even know how many come from distinct posters.