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Leila and me
09-Jan-2008
We talk about the Shah here all the time but we never talk about Leila. I wrote a poem about Leila once. It was exactly three years ago, at the time when I went under. I went under because of a Persian Male--one of those with eyes of Eternity and kohl, who oozed Hafez from every pore in veiled dank misty rivers. You know the type, but at the time I didn’t, and so I fell in love. And he fell out and I went under. Into a very dark place. And when I came back, I’d written this poem. Or this poem had written me.
So walk with me if you will down this very dark road. I will navigate you ithrough it to its hidden light... Biya ta tariki barafshanim.
Leila Pahlavi died alone at night in Leonard Hotel near Marble Arch, in London in June, 2001. The cause of her death was given as a combination of pharmaceutical sleeping pills and other pharmaceutical and recreational drugs, along with anorexia nervosa. If you believe she was assassinated, you may not get much from this poem. In it, I went on Leila's journey to the other side, to Irkalla, the land the Sumerians and Babylonians called the Great Below. And we two, Leila and I, did not go alone. We went with the goddess Inanna.
In Sumero-Babylonian mythology, Inanna/Ishtar, Goddess of Love, makes this journey of her own free choice, to visit her dark sister, Ereshkigal, the Queen of the land of the dead. Inanna must undergo what all the dead must when they enter her sister’s realm. She must pass through seven gates, at each one further stripped of her garments and judged, Once naked. she must be slaughtered by her own sister and her carcass hanged from a peg. But she is rescued by her servant and two hermaphrodites, who embody the balance of the male and female. That is to say, resurrected.
This myth is a clear prefiguration of the Christian Crucifixion as well as the Greek Persephone and Orpheus myths. What is striking, however, is that the journey to the Great Below in this earlier version belongs exclusively to women. It is women’s own violence, grief and rage, which must be confronted and assimilated by themselves, and not projected onto men, if women are ever to be free. In this process lies their Power
I have said similar things about Iran.. No matter how severe the foreign interventions have been, Iran must own its own history. Only then can she be whole. Finally the female voices in this poem who speak violently against the Shah, the Eternal Father, have no political content whatsoever.
Leonard Hotel near Marble Arch
(Descent into Irkalla)
Open the leaves of morning’s door.
-Morning Prayer of Imam Ali
Princess Leila, Leila-joon
They have scattered all the stones
that you gathered for them faithfully.
And they’re gone now, all of them.
What a fine June night to take a walk.
To step into your sister’s arms who
waits for you at Marble Arch.
She’s been waiting far too long
Stumble to her in the dark
but soft my sweet insomniac.
Rest assured, but rest forearmed
This is no valentino runway.
And anyway, you’re far too thin.
It’s right that you refused their seeds.
This is no styx. There are no men
on chariots to pull you in.
(Nor shahbahnous to fetch you).
Still better take some nourishment
for if you do not come back up
good doctor iqbal’s r and x’s
will get all the credit.
Which only feeds the status quo
–-those coroners what do they know–
and this is no connecticut. Come,
take your sister’s medicine.
Now down the hatch we go.
Welcome to Irkalla dear.
Strange no man’s land.
Here are no salad days at brown
no birds no poems no peacock thrones
to dream you more of their irans.
But only sister’s loving hands.
You see how low she bows you, how deftly
she removes your crown. And
you thought they had done so. Let’s
undress the true wounds now.
Princess leila, leila-joon
You’re nothing but a bag of bones.
Strange strange karbala.
That was the first gate.
And seven times she’ll strip you blind
and seven you’ll be judged. Not by the ones
of books and stones
but by the searing pangs of a
kind of a driven labour of love.
Sink sleepwalker deep into her slumber
feeding succorless on placenta of grief you can
see how much she grieves,
she
grieves for her consort and
for all the endless dead, convulsive
uncontrollable venom of grief she
grieves because she’s angry, grieves because she’s jealous, because
you left her all alone here to rot in this hellhole maligned forgotten
misunderstood stuck in this godforsaken sewer pit this
stinking shithole of a great below while upstairs you rode alpha
romeos with all those lovers you could never love because you
chose to love only him spewing his megalomanias into the wind part
cyrus part che part errol flynn that party at persepolis boy that was rich
not to mention that ridiculous white revolution you
stupid anorectic bitch what the
hell’s gotten into you starving
yourself for the sake of your fucking father well
here are no fathers but only larvae so
don’t you dare to cry out for him missy when she
hangs you out from her peg to dry your
carcass a slab of maggot-ridden meat whose
flesh eats foetal into the bone it is
forbidden
to cry out
for him for them
we take care of
the forsaking here thank you
listen sleeping beauty
daddy’s little girl
we do the putrefying they
are not answerable we
are the clean-up crew we
are reliable this is
our golgotha our
sacred suicide this is
women’s work lily it is
between you and the
flies
and then in the original myth
the two hermaphrodites fashioned from the dirt beneath the ocean’s fingernails
with the help of the ever-faithful servant
waft inanna back up to the sky
and you Lady ship
would you too rise
as the sun soaked through your window from Oxford Street
and room service knocked on your door
if I only could have held you in my arms and told you so
as you lay prone in your posh hotel shorn of your cast-off robes how
distended into darkness deep in amniotic fluid sac of gall
the embryo is still born. Darling darling
do not fear the fear for her killing bed
is our wedding bed where her rage shall midwife
the chrysalis of foam, sole alembic from which we emerge
Whole, white goddess, parturient of mourning,
Imam, finally, of our own becoming.
would you take from me this silver tray
of breakfast tea and scones
had I only known you Leila
oh, had I only known
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Rosie Jan
by Homa_Rahnema1964 (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:57 PM PST"Kourosh Sassanian" is getting a taste of his own medicine. These are the type of comments that he leaves under his other names for other people.
As others have done, I want to thank you for helping to expose him. Please keep up your good work. Merci
You see . . .
by Kouroush Sassanian on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:55 PM PSTIranians often confronted with the fact the arab blood runs in their veins use foul language to deflect attention from their history and how they came about - let me spell it out for you. Your nanes, khahars, madars were all bent over the barrel by arabs! And, you love and support it now! Now that's honor!
The whole KS's father and mom is just so original.
Jamshid is correct....I have even seen it on an VC site . . .
by Kouroush Sassanian on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:51 PM PSTYip!
Kouroush, Vel Kon
by Kouroush Sassanian's Mom (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:49 PM PSTHarf Rosie khanom ra goosh kon. Man ajab Gohi Khordam ke to ra zayeedam. Ey tof to rooye Babat ke man hameleye To kard - Ah
Could you please
by Rosie T. on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:39 PM PSTstop this conversation Kouroush and pals?
Kouroush
by Jack_London.Oakland (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:35 PM PSTI guess the Gig is up body. Need to find a new one. Next time, be a little smarter about it . - hey?
Re: n.zanincanadai
by jamshid on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:43 PM PSTYou will find all other sites, be it in English or in Farsi from Iran, to be the same.
Kouroush, Pesaram
by Kouroush Sassanian's Father (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:18 PM PSTMoteasefane, TO koonet goheeyeh - Hamantor ke baghie migan, khahesh mikonam ke Adam Sho - Base Digeh. Ta kay mikhai enghadr Ahmagh bemooni
Babat
P.S. man mikham az taraf Kouroush az hamatoon mazerat bekham. Moteasefane, daste khodesh nist. Az Bachegi hamin tor boodeh
Nadia
by Kouroush Sassanian on Thu Jan 10, 2008 03:15 PM PSTIt works every single time! Hook, line, Sinker! A people must deserve freedom, democracy and more - these idiots do great in making aftabehs[asking Rosie about this, it is an instrument designed to wash ones arse after sitting on Khoemini's face, this is why you should never shake a muslim's left or right hand, well, they may be abis!], seeking Khoemini on the moon [not actually landing on it, but seeing a person on it!]. The IRI deserves its people and its people deserve the IRI!
Now, back to me - more, more, do more research! more! Opps, I did it again, my dog took another big dump on a mosque! Che pesareh, che chezesee!
I can see the systolic going up again when seyyeds are reminded of being rape victims of arabs, sorry, get help on this issue! It was not your fault! I think there is a ravanshenas here that can help!
A Word of Advice to "Kouroush Sassanian"
by Ravanshenas (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:56 PM PSTI don't usually like commenting, but I feel that perhaps a word or two may help.
I have read the various comments, and the blogs by Mr. Bahmani and Jahanshah Javid. I have noticed that you use these other names ("Ahmad Bahai", "Anonymouspb", "Anonymous2008", "babakoohi", "Kos Sher", "not.anyone's.brother", etc.) primarily when you want to attack people. Either directly, or indirectly.
As you know, in Farsi, there is a saying: "Ta nabashad chizaki, mardom nagooyand chiz ha". What I am trying to say is, next time when you want to leave such nasty and unflattering comments, please realize that there are many, many eyes watching you.
Please get some help :) For your own sake!! People are not fools ..
Nadias, Rosie, that's the point...
by Q on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:53 PM PSTFirst, Rosie, you have done it again. The "shirzan" that your are, youhave made the top comments list. Good writing too.
On Kouroush, you know my instincts about this kind of thing. Look at the number of complete strangers that "zerti" show up to talk about Kouroush. He may have registered, but I suspect is still using aliases. Why people feel like they need this much attention, is beyond me.
Too much time is being spent on Kouroush............
by Nadias on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:49 PM PSThe is becoming famous if not infamous on this website. He must be loving all the focus on him.
I think it is best to focus on other things and not on "Where is Kouroush Sassanian" today?
solh va doosti
Nadia
::Kouroush Sassanian::
by Curious Jim (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:36 PM PSTSimilar discussion going on in Shah's last interview: //iranian.com/main/singlepage/2008/shahs-...
Tks :)
Afarin!!
"Kouroush Sassanian"
by Jamshid Alam (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:34 PM PSTKhosham Miyad Ke Hame Daran Be Ghiyafat Mirinan. Ey Badbakht, Patat Ro Ab Oftadeh. TO Enghadr Mard Nisti Ke Faghat Ba Yek Esm Comment Bedi. Bayad Beri Posht Dah Ta Digeh Esm Ghayem Beshi.
Khake Alam Bar Saret.
I love the concern of these muslim *** for Rosie . . .
by Kouroush Sassanian on Thu Jan 10, 2008 02:31 PM PSTI cannot speak for Rosie, but I want to make it clear that I have no romantic interest whatsoever in Rosie. She seems to be lovely a person with genuine interest in Iran. Far more love than you ***Muslims have for your own land. She has been the only person clever enough to understand the persona of Kouroush Sassanian. Well, that may go to far, but she probably knows I do not need to use multiple name, but if she does not that's fine, also.
I ain't asking for her hand to make Fesenjoon, so "allasss guuutt!"
Now to others, who think they have identified who bent them over the barrel. I assure you it was not me. I am not to any sort of praying with any barrel, oil or otherwise. You are too *** because *** blood runs in your veins, so I say it again, I am you, I am your enemses[sic], your neighbor, your fears, your pain, your hate, your shame, a friend you once had, an enemy you once knew, a love, a person who betrayed you, a person who loved you, a person who scarified all for you.You are really concerned for Rosie or are you burning inside because I call you rape victims, people who bend over and worship their rapists or is it that I call you Muslims, Ali, Hussein, Mohammad. Oh, it matters not! My hate toward the IRI does not require multiple names. You are simpletons and will never understand this, because you live in caves of conspiracies where your only food for thought are the millions of droppings you receive. Yes, close your eyes and see how you live! You are my muse!Rosie[to blame for all the wrongs in the World], Omid[We understand WA], Nadia[just listen to Gloria] and colonel Hemayat[I have much respect for him] are at a minimum stand firm on their beliefs - I do not care if these are fictisious people are not! You on the other hand will suffer forever. I have managed to cause you to spend time cutting & pasting and writing about my alleged multiple identities. This is extremely amusing to me. I do wish that you continue. It exemplifies everything that is wrong with you!
Now, I have emailed Rosie the beads I bought in Jerusalem. She can return them to me if she so desires, however, as I said before I have the holy thread. [Thought to self : Rosie is thinking he is got a God Complex, am further uncomfortable - khatar, Khater, Robinson, Khatar!, that was a great show!]
There ain't no beads, no thread, nothing, there was nothing, there will be nothing and you get nothing from nothing, although, these vermin have managed to get a lot from nothing!
Okay moving one and seriously, I am interested in her[Rosie's]brain, how she writes, how she thinks, her fears, hear desires, her hopes[Omid], and alas her love for Iran. Because, I ain’t got none!
Lastly, David ET is what Ghotbzadeh stood for, another sellout of his land! It is amazing how much you resemble him. I can see you bending over kissing Khamanei’s hand, looking like a sheepish 14 year old with your head hung low to one side and with arms crossed. Yes, you know the look, look of a good little shia boy!
To rest of you, continue searching for those illusive alternate names in alternate realities - I have got to take my dog out now!
Rosie, Tks for helping to expose Kouroush Sassanian
by Mahin_KhanomLA (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 01:50 PM PSTI read both blogs that "shahlaSAFARPOUR" mentioned a few comments down. The Bahmani Blog was revealing because many people had realized the "Double Life" that he was leading.
I also read the exchanges that you had with KS on the JJ blog that was mentioned by shahla, especially the recent comments. I also read comments by other people, especially the one by "Manoochehr Hooshmandi", and followed his suggestion of checking the different identities for myself.
I went and looked for Comments written under these names throughout the site: "Kourosh Sassanian", "Ahmad Bahai", "Anonymouspb", "Anonymous2008", "babakoohi", "Kos Sher", and "not.anyone's.brother". After that, I compared the writings both in style and structure.
As Houshmandi had indicated, there was a "Striking Similarity" between all of them. As he had indicated also, they were written by the same person.
By helping expose this guy, hopefully you have stopped him from hurting other people. Tks again :) God bless you!!
Last Update::: Different names that Kouroush Sassanian uses!!!
by Cousin of Walter Cronkite (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 11:32 AM PST"Kourosh Sassanian", "Ahmad Bahai", "Anonymouspb", "Anonymous2008", "babakoohi", "Kos Sher", and "not.anyone's.brother"
Please let's know if you come across new ones :):) - Cheers
Kourosh Is "not.anyone's.brother" you?!!!
by Curious John (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 11:13 AM PST????
:)
shahlaSAFARPOUR; re: Kourosh Sassanian
by Mohebat_Zaman29IS (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 11:00 AM PSTThanks for your information. I read both blogs. I think that he is also using a new name today.
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I went around reading the blogs, and there is a new name: "not.anyone's.brother" which looks awful similar to KS's writing.
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I guess a leoprad never loses its spot ...
Ahvazi189R.....I know about Kouroush Sassanian
by Nadias on Thu Jan 10, 2008 01:23 PM PSTI know all about the blogs they mention on this thread. I was on the thread of those blogs as it was happening. KS and I have also come across each other on other blogs.
He continues to want to dwell on the past and call it living. He is in a lot of pain and has a lot of hate. He just doesn't want to let go of it.
solh va doosti
Nadia
Nadias --- Kourosh Sassanian
by Ahvazi189R (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:40 AM PSTIt is more than dark side. It is his multiple personalities and names that he uses!!!
Read the blogs that "Shahla" was talking about a few comments back. I wasn't aware of this myself till now.
Solh and Peace to you too
where is Sarhang Hemghat?
by سرهنگ ستاد (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:33 AM PSTYou see, his majesty trained his subjects to be brutal, merciless and savage, that was the theory of Reza Khan Mir Panj.
The result was an army that was filled with scums of the universe (here is looking at you babe) and because of sheer idleness they had nothing but the curse the hell out of each others' mother and sister.
I am a production of that army, but later Lord Jesus told me to wake up and repent and I did.
Now I am in France burning the money we and other colleagues stole from the coffers of people of Iran and with full support of Farah, the number one you know what.
So, it might be a life of luxury but we worked for it (yeah right, you might say, but like they say, ce la vie, mon cherie...
People like Hemaghat should understand, that we all have some kind of or another pain of nostalgia. To attack people without any provocation is not an Islamic deed and nor a Christian value.
I shall sign off now, you will not see me again unless this Colonel Hemayat (aka Hemaghat) comes back again, not just here but anywhere else.
I want to thank Mr. J Javid to give us this opportunity to beat the shit of freedom of speech may God give him what he wishes for, as I know he deserves it.
So long, god speed
Retired Army Officer
Down with Farah and her gang, long live the poor people of Iran.
RedWine
by Anonymous-ha (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:12 AM PSTna agha jan ..blame director and the producer! characters are played based on the scenario!
This thread is getting really weird.............
by Nadias on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:11 AM PSTI think many are aware, including Rosie T. of KS dark side. I don't think she will rush into anything.
solh va doosti
Nadia
Rosie Aziz (On K. Sassanian)
by shahlaSAFARPOUR (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:06 AM PSTMake sure that Kouroush is not the second Iranian man that will drop you. People like him prey on people like you.
I agree with the sentiments described here about him. I read Bahmani's Blog: //iranian.com/main/blog/bahmani/we-certai... and the discussion on JJ's Blog between the two of you //iranian.com/main/blog/jahanshah-javid/h.... Please wise up.
lat khuneh ?
by Red Wine on Thu Jan 10, 2008 10:00 AM PSThahahahahaha ... baba inja cheh khabareh ??? saltanat talab ha ba comunista party dadan ? hahahaha ... kheili bikarin shumaha...
Rosie, Have the "Insanes" taken ..
by Dr. Chehrazi (not verified) on Thu Jan 10, 2008 09:43 AM PSTover the "Assylum", or what? -
Regarding your ex- dropping you, well, to be honest with you, there were probably no "Real" feelings in the first place to be "Obliterated".
I think that the feelings were perhaps mostly in your "Mind" that in his "Heart". Don't mean to be "Mean", but it happens often in People :)
Good Luck!!
Does anyone know of another
by n.zanincanadai on Thu Jan 10, 2008 08:35 AM PSTDoes anyone know of another site with a similar format? For Iranians? If so, please discuss it. I think this place really needs a wake up call. Akheh baba har chizi ham haddi dareh. I understand the usage of foul language in the context of sending a message or expressing oneself. But when it is directed as an assault to everyone who reads it, I get discouraged from visiting the site.
سر هنگ حمایت ****
سرهنگ ستاد (not verified)Thu Jan 10, 2008 06:58 AM PST
************.
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To my frieds, hope you are all having a wonderful day in the beautiful Paris evening. I just had a private message for Colonel Hemayat and wanted to stop by and say hi....
Rosie / David / Jamshid...
by Jahanshah Rashidian on Thu Jan 10, 2008 07:00 AM PSTAny affection for a people is not forcibly politically polarised. Rosie’s affection for the people in Iran is obviously pure. This, among others, characterises with her intentions to bring all Iranians together, something that is of course not easy because of the forced polarisation of our society.